Tag: struggles

What am I doing here?

So, as the title asks, this is something I have been thinking lately. What are my goals and why are they my goals? More and more as these days go by, I see that I spend my time thinking on how I can improve on my social media presence vs how can I just be. 

I guess It would be great if I can adopt the field of dreams concept, “if you build it, they will come”. First off, I would like to say I am extremely grateful for accomplishing 2 of my primary goals in life. One is publishing a book, and two, my writing having a positive impact in someone’s life. A person who I barely knew stated, after reading my book, they were reminded why they loved to read. I was like whoa, that’s heavy. It felt nice that my book had that kind of impact on someone.

It has been a struggle for me to get to this stage. I never really considering a career in writing. As far back as I can remember, I did it for the love and enjoyment. I have been sitting on my book for over 10 years. Many times, it was my life line when things got rough. I never set out to be the greatest writer of all time. I have a passion for storytelling. In my early years, I wanting to work in the movie industry simply to be around creative people and be a part of what I called something special. 

Don’t get me wrong, I have done a lot of things in life that I am proud of, including having a successful graphic design company for 6 years before I decided to change directions. Unfortunately, with my writing, I waited so long to decide to throw caution to the wind and get my hands dirty. There are thousands upon thousands of talented writers out there. The sheer though can be intimidating, which brings me to my original thought. We all crave to have our voice heard and strive for purpose. If you remember from one of my previous blogs, impacting someone life positively is like a drug to me. With all that said, I am grateful to those of you who find the time to read my thoughts, especially if you choose to follow me. I would hope that you follow because you find value in the content that I produce. 

If I am to be honest, I am doing all of this so that I can give some insight to who I am and to bring awareness to my novels. If you like what you are seeing/reading, then I am sure that you would love my book. My stories are a reflection of me. While its difficult to bring originality, I would like to believe that the content that I release is as original as I can create it. I have created a world from the ground up, as a matter of fact, you can say I started at the beginning, the proverbial big bang.

I welcome everyone to give my work a chance and see if it’s something you can get down with. Speaking from my inner being, I rather keep you entertained with my novels then thinking of ways to stay relevant on social media. Not that I don’t enjoy making a statement that makes you think or laugh. My goal is to take you to another world where you can experience those things and more. Much love to those who continue to support and help fuel the flame of my desires.

Pushing through

So, I have not written anything in some days. I Have been busy researching and working on putting together the information for my Kickstarter campaign that’s coming soon.

With that said, emotionally, it has been a pretty up and down week and I guess as blogs go, the message for the blog today is pushing through the moments of doubt.

As an artist, I believe that most of us share a similar personality where we have self-doubt or moments of wondering if anyone else will “get me”. Even when things are seemingly good, I have my moments of what the heck am I doing, or moments of being unhappy for almost no apparent reason. Well there is always a reason and its usually from the lack of feeling fulfilled. For me this is all the start of a journey and while I hope that people will enjoy my work, I find that I am all to concerned with having something great enough that people will want to talk about or refer others to.

I try to remind myself that every journey is that, a journey. There is no good or bad. There is no success or fail. At the heart of it all, its about doing something you love and finding the pleasure in the process. For some that process is a bit easier, but even those of us who have to struggle and fight for every review or validation the feeling is all the same. From speaking with my peers, most artist I have had the pleasure to converse with, go through this cycle no matter how successful one may be.

My personal take is that artist typically suffer in one form or the other, and out of that suffering can come greatness even if that artist is not aware. One of my favorite underrated movies of my time is Lady in the Water by M. Night Shyamalan. I loved the message and I think most artist can identify with it. Without giving away any spoilers, the way the story played out for the writer in the story speaks volumes to me. Just keep pushing and do what’s in your heart. Take pleasure in knowing that you are following your dream. Who knows, you may have an impact on someone else who turn to your work for a moment of happiness when they need it the most.